Time: 0229pm
Date: 15 May 2007
Ya ALLAH...
I don't know why...My Life is like this...Isit I deserve to get by this way or is this the journey which I have to past before getting to where I would always want to be...???
1 day, there will always be pain in me...
What's this pain is all about...???
What's the good behind this after all this pain...???
Sometimes, just to bare with it...I fell sick last 2 days...Was feeling better the previous day then today...I'm unwell again...
From physical sometimes to heart and then to my own self.....
Ya ALLAH...I know YOU knows everything , why it happened...For what reason...
But I will still try to be patience...Because this is what u Destiny for me...
I believe, sometimes, to get things which u want in Life will take time...
Either, u have to past through a journey which will make u lose a breathe...Or sometimes, it's just ur hard work, truhtful, good deeds make u success...Patience I believe is in everything...Alittle or more...
What to do...This is My Life...
No point of ending ur Life with a stupid thing...U just have to let go and keep on moving...From there, think and decide...What's there to ignore or prove...
Why it happen...What's the reason...
I'm tired...
I'm tired of all and everything...
But thanks to ALLAH, I still have one friend...A friend who is like a sister to me...
Malisah...
I love u Lisa...
Promise me we gonna be together always...Just missing Vani...
Have to understand her...She herself have her family problem and her own...
Her only thing which hardly contact with us its her personal problem...For that, we as her true frens, had to understand her...
Talking about your own problems, other people also have problems...
Sometimes I think, the more I think, the more my head will feel like bursting out anytime...
I will then get migraine...
That's my Life...
Sometimes, knowing 1 guy, u lost ur guy frens...
Never ever happened before in my Life...
But it was few weeks back that one by one came back to me and dissappeared...
A sign of wishing me good luck???
Or to give me a clearly view???
Everything their conversation was there...
I just can't understand myself...
My shadow is my accompany...Myself is my strength...My weakness is my heart...
My mind is the freedom...What more, I just don't know how to describe...
Right now, the only person I can depend on is myself...
Yes, myself...
Not even Lisa...
Because.....Insya'ALLAH, with my patience, sincere and clean heart...
I know...It's just a matter of time...
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