Time: 1027pm
Date: 8 May 2007



Guess what, never even reply my sms...
I sms him at night thought can talk to him but then no replys...
Well...It already been proved it might that he is really stress and confused...Or maybe its just an excuses that he just wants to avoid me...
Ijust finished crying again but I don't know why this heart still wants to shed tears for him after what he had done...
Probably he will msg me but I'm not sure when...That's part of my feeling as what I feel...
But then, I know it takes time for me to forget him...As a bestfren, I don't think we are like bestfren anymore...I , myself also don't know...
Well...Insya'ALLAH, I believe ALLAH will destiny me to meet Shariffudin Mohd Raffi sooner or later...I just accept this all as part of the test in Life...I regret knowing Jaspal...I wish time could rewind...But, I promise not to repeat this mistake anymore...
Probably, I will take it as if my relation ties is still close with Jaspal...It's hard and late for me to meet 'My Dream Guy' .....
Well...Somethings in Life to gain something which is much more better hopefully, Insya'ALLAH, u need to lose what is important for you at the moment...
I think and think...There's no point of me trying to save our bestfrenship when he, himself doesn't even cared about me...Its almost of 4 months of bestfren with him...Not included our knowings...

Well...it's sad...because everyday, I am always thinking what he does and u know...I wil like always wondering what Jaspal might doing right now even now...
Probably he might reach his house...And having something at least or change and rest or maybe u know he likes to just 'lepak' , yes something like that...

Why, why, why , why, why this heart can't stop bothering anything which relating to him???

...........I just don't know...........