Time: 1104pm
Date: 9 May 2007
Just this few minutes back...I am really thanks to ALLAH as 1 of my fren, really tell me and make me see a picture...Realise it...His name is Darrul and guess what...
He told me that...In Life...this is all are something which u have to sometimes , show and prove to them that u no need them...
Because u don't really need them...I waste at least nearly 7 months like that by friending with him...
I don't blame him but I blame myself...I really don't know why that time I was like feels so all of a sudden like...It's hard to type it here...I mean to explain...
But whatever...I will not gonna be low...I have to prove it that what for u frens with a person who doesn't accept ur frenship...Maybe I think...During those time, it was just a false relationship...
All was just a part of his lonelyness...
I regret for whatever and all...
I just regret...Regreted...Feels I have a sin which I have to reprent...
Guess what.....
I used to open my heart for him right...But now, suddenly it like gone...
Forever...I really hope so...
There will be no any chances for him...
It's true I used to said that...
If GOD doesn't give us a 2nd chance, we need to adjust it ourselves...
But then, I think, he's not this type of person to give that chances...
I already tried...
But he never replied...So let it be...
A goodbye then...
Right now, I breathing hardly and stressly...
I think its over...
My heart is very pain already...
I can't take it any longer...
Let see what's destiny it going to destiny for me...
I will always pray for the best and if I can't get what I want, I belive that there will be much more better ones...
ALLAH knows the Best...HE Owns it all...
I will and must prove it...
All my frens says all its true that a guy like him shouldn't be trusted...
I think,I should have known the fact that he was just fooling around...
I already knew..As all my loved oneswere telling me at the first place but then I insisted to give him a second chance...
He also knews it too but then what to do...Nothing...
I just tried to prove to him even though my loved ones was saying like that, I still showered him with careness...
But everything, he got it all wrong...
I will take it as experience even though I regreted but then...
I'm sincere, honest and patience...
Oh..Wasting my time...
Till here then...
Take care...
Goodbye...
SaLaam
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