Time: 0942pm
Date: 12 January 2007



Today, my off day so I met Rafi...Everything like what I thought was different...Im scared of losing him again but then this is the feeling I had in me after meeting him...He was like a good-looking guy with an attitude...I like it...Attitude I mean as in he was like whether that was him or not coz he sounds totally different in real than in msn or phone...Im very sad and was very sad just now...I felt like missing him a lot and guess what when I reached home, I just broke down...Im scared la...Of losing him...C now, he don't even msg me at all...I dont know why but right now, Im typing also feel like broking down, crying but Im patience myself...What the thing has happened to me and I can't even recognise anything...I hope its not Love or whatever...Oh Ya ALLAH, only SHariffudin M Raffi is mine and no one will be with him...Only me...Not any other girls...Then what the bang and I having this type of feelings towards Rafi...???
Im clueless and helpless...It was like something that never happen in ur Life...I mean, this is my first time, go out with a guy, watch movie, talk at least something and then k, go off...OMG, dont tell me Im falling or having a craush with this type of guy.....My heart beats fast adn slow at a same time...Does he really thinks of me too like this? Or he is going out for any other girls???
OMG, I though he stick to that seriousness...Oh, why...Don't Rabia, don't ever break down...OMG, I can't believe this, tears are dropping out from my eyes...
I really have no idea as if whether hethinks for me the same as what I thinks of him...Right now, his face is still in my mind...I really have no idea why...it's like a feeling of come and go...I cant take it...Common Rafi, call me or at least SMS me...Im waiting for u...I really dont have the guts to msg u first anyway Im a girl what even though its a generation of millenium but then, honours and respect is still within...I really dont know what has happen to me or for what reason...All I know for now is just Im scared of losing u...That's all...I really dont know why am I feeling it this way...Oh no...I can't be believing this that Im crying...WHy and what the hell are U in my mIND, RAFI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh please, SMS me at least...Im waiting...Dont make...Dont make me feel this...I can see u sing in all the Hindi songs I hear...I can just imagine u...Really...I never lie...I am so shit, so regreted to say be serious...I wish I haven't meet u or know u...I regreted...In my Life really...I hope u r not like Rahul...
I am thinking of u here and then n r u thinking of me?
WHat it feels if u love that person when that person u r in Love will never love u back like how u do or are not in Love with u...???
A really big and grave mistake right???
I m dan cofused but I cant take this to all by myself...I cant disturb my fren my good close fren Vani...She is also having problem...SHe is very tired and I really dont have any idea what to do...Oh Ya ALLAH, is it Rafi thinking on me or about me???
Is he really missing me?
I hope he will thinks good and be lucky to have met a person like me...
Im just fedup...Right now, just waiting for his msg...If he never msg me today, tomorrow, Sunday and so on...I promise to forget him...Yeh, mera vaada hai...
And if there is anything I can't help...I promise, I'll help myself...Neither one will be a burden nor trouble...Let see if his seriouness is true...
Sincere, and did he stick towards his saying, his word....
I had enough of this...I really need to stop my feeling...Thank ALLAH, Dev is there for me...I now want to call him...Sometimes, talking to stranger is really different coz their opinion will make u feel more outstanding...
Take Care all...
Peace...
SaLaam...
Rabia